Dream

It’s that bittersweet taste of hope that reels me into believing every single person’s faint promise of love and friendship, and most of all, a soft glowing sense of being understood and accepted.

And then there’s the impossibility of such an experience being any more than a fleeting reality; it’s an impish little phenomenon, this sensation: it fades out of existence much quicker than it had glimmered into being at first.

In its wake, there’s a deafening silence, there’s comfort of solitude and my mind the ripples of which slowly come to a still in the aftermath of that glorious contact with another’s. Yet, the comfort must end, before it thickens to a fatal thickness.

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I would like to

I want to shed my skin

to let Birds alight

on the ex-posed whims

 

Is there a meter I must mind

or a syllable I must grind

to please a language that was

indeed meant to be mine

 

Yet now I am Its

and it refuses to be she

who opens her legs to me

And now I remain forever blind

and unable, utterly

to produce a brain child

Death Onstage

 

“And so I think my mother is death”

Gasp! Sounds the hall

Our mother is death”

Screeeeech! goes the microphone

She clears her throat, wipes her brow

“Death must be a mother”

Aaah… the sigh runs through the crowd, nodding heads bob in a wave and chairs creak under the relaxing rears.

“So”, she says, daring to let an infant smile curl upon her lips, ” we stand here, moving towards her, away from her, and through her; dying several times before breathing for the first time, and then waiting for the final embrace. And while Life, the mean school teacher, frays our edges and whittles our hearts into strange and unique shapes, the cleansing fire of Death brings us all to primal ash.”

Yawwwn! goes one, beginning a chain of eyes drooping like dominoes

“In one way, however, Life may not be so bad after all” She says, eyeing the clock and feeling sweat pool in her armpits,

“The shapes don’t really matter, perhaps.”

ehehem… a throat clears, and then a few others

“It’s your chafed contour,” she gulps, “glowing like a halo when you allow yourself to stand in the way of light, which promises you glimpses of divinity in yourself and others…”

Triiinggg! goes the bell.

She sighs, now with a full smile, “…before we turn to ash”

 

 

Honey

The walls of your womb have begun

To draw my vermilion blood

And slit by the edge in your voice

Is my throat nipped in the bud

 

You must know surely and indeed

That I shrink from the rage I feel

Claw at you and cleave, demented,

My thin skin I took years to weave

 

I can hear my heart tick away

As we say what we have said before

And our fingers fuse around

The cool pin in its dark grenade core

 

A Single shadow blights the room

There are no locks on the door

I vanish and you dissolve

In our vitriolic amour

 

Titles

You drew lines with sticks and chalks

in my soft, moist earth

while I cooled  feet in  the soil

with tomorrow sown for mirth

 

Now you’ve shown me a sky scarred

by ruby-eyed planes

and scraped by ivory towers

that I must climb with bars

Joy, sincerely feigned

and have my country heart devoured

 

it’s venom that moves me now

since the day I was bitten

with your blinding diamond teeth

It’s venom that draws me to death

in your fire, I glisten

Its smoke of my flesh I breathe

 

And for now I move, a beast

caged in robes of elite

glide with wings of a preying bird

carrying bleeding, mangled feet

 

Horizon

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Blues of dawning hearts

they swirl in quivering skies

shall we paint ourselves red

shall we turn to ripe

shall we turn to glowing stone

pierced and waiting to be thawed

or shall we swim in the violet whispers

open and soft

never home

gleaming one moment, tearing in another

drenched in electric thunder

 

Shall we soak the sun for its vital incandescence

and lose our contours to its heated whims

Shall we lean into one another

and taste the fear and thrill

of being

in flight

Brittle

Made with love, whatever that is

Here’s a porcelain doll

For you to break with your kisses

Warm but cold and no qualms 

Honey charred your eyes turn to

The pieces of her scarlet

Ripe and crushed, beyond undo

The heart shaped throbbing garnet

“It’s just China” blushing you say

“Fashioned for final crash 

Mindless, thoughtless, too much to pay

One could not be too rash”

Her Gaze of glass, your spine of steel

Spirits of smoke in both

Shapeless, weightless, none can feel

brittle shells of broken oaths

Blue Moon

One day happiness will come to me
Draped in resplendent gold
And I will turn away from her
Wrath in my blood, frozen cold.

There’s a shining pin in my skin
For each day spent in trance 
Painting verses for the steel world
Never caring to  glance 

As the moon of my soul, revived
slept sans a lullaby 
Twisting and turning and writhing
Poisoned by each muffled cry 

Cratered and greying and aged
before his time to bloom
He mourned  the tideless waters 
From his violet tomb 

Impaled with silver beams I bled
Then seeking my old shell
And crawling into its darkness
Sang for my heart’s burial

The moon has drowned in my world
But elsewhere, has begun to rise
And when it rains outside my door
Memories burn in my eyes

They fuel my dreams ablaze
Char what’s left of my days
Hissing, they rise in steam 
Till only a carcass 
of me can be seen.

Crystal Womb

I dance on thin ice and feel

the aged winter trace

Fractals on my skin

 

Cracks are born beneath my feet

Each time I prance, this maze

Of crystal babes sprawls in

 

The wrinkled cradling arms of snow

And I dance, debonair

Tease the cold that waits

 

To pull me close by my toe

Embrace my soul bare

Take the cadent bait

 

Of my heart and spirit and being

To lull them to eternal sleep

Returning to the silent womb

My final lilting scream

Paper

I write these words

To read your mind

As you try to read mine

In these words that sprang

Into being

On this blankness so white

On the surface of which

We smile back at ourselves

And we weep tears

That fall and pool

In our own eyes

And sometimes

Just sometimes

A strange hand

That  comes into view

Cups to hold a trickle

Or reaches out

To be warmed by the joy

It’s yours today

And here you are

Peering into the depths, oh my!

Of a canvas that shines

A dance of dark and light

Will you see me?

Or will I see you?

Or will you see just you?

You just might

We shall see

We shall see